claudia2006 ([info]claudia2006) wrote,
@ 2007-05-13 22:26:00
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Current mood: anxious

hmmmmm..... My first journal entry here should probably be profound, but it's not going to be.

A week from today I'm going on a road trip to see Morrissey twice. I'm excited but I'm starting to get anxious b/c I'm going by myself. I don't mind being at the shows by myself but I'm a little nervous about driving alone. I tend to be a very anxious person, and to be honest I'm looking at the traveling part of this as something I need to do to make myself stronger. Also, I'm afraid it's going to be lonely in the hotel by myself. I'm an only child and I grew up with nervous parents who worried a lot, and I think that has a lot to do with my anxiety. Well anyway, I can't WAIT to see Moz again, so I'm hoping that maybe the excitement is going to propel me there and I'll be on such a cloud of happiness I won't have the chance to be stressed or anxious or lonely.


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[info]claudia2006
2007-05-14 04:45 am UTC (link)
I know what you mean! I've changed quite a bit since I "discovered" (re-discovered? finally paid attention to? I really don't know how to put it) Morrissey. Sometimes it hits me how much I've grown in such a short time and it's almost hard to believe. I like the idea of being able to give him the credit for making me want to improve myself. It's so easy to accept the status quo and stay in a rut forever if you're not careful. I really think if he hadn't come along, so to speak, nothing and no one else would have ever motivated me. He really inspires me. I think I looked at him and realized how far he's come as a person, and how he seems to have learned to live with depression and move past it, and how he's handled himself all these years through everything (good and bad) with such self-respect and discipline. And I thought I want that! How do I do that??? How did he do it? :)

And thanks for the support on my ridiculous anxiety! I know it's going to be SO MUCH FUN!! And I know I'm being fairly stupid worrying about driving by myself. I'm driving in broad daylight, at most 5 hours per day with a cell phone and GPS in a year old Toyota. *knocking wood that I didn't just jinx myself and that I don't have a flat tire or anything*

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[info]_scarlet_ibis_
2007-05-14 04:58 am UTC (link)
I wish you tons of luck, but I'm confident that you'll look back on this as a FABULOUS adventure. :D

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